Living with joy in the face of… I didn’t just wake up with joy one day. I couldn’t feel it and I didn’t want it. All I wanted was what my heart wanted and that’s all I could see. The truth is, living with joy in the face of seems almost impossible, right; at least when you’re in the thick of it. That is what I thought when this parental alienation started. When I went from being able to speak to my children and hold them in my arms to nothing, I thought this was what would break me and snuff out my light. But here I am, twenty-one months later, and I’m living with joy in the face of. What I didn’t know in the beginning of it all was that the pain I felt combined with the joy I would soon allow to consume me, would work together in a way that even I can’t fathom just yet. The two, would catapult my faith to a place it needed to go in order to see a perspective I couldn’t yet see. The pain and joy working together trans...
When I look in the mirror, I don’t even recognize myself anymore. The woman I was and the woman I am are colliding with the woman I am to be. And if I’m being honest with myself, that is a scary thought. Within me lie so many emotions and feelings. Within me lie past hurts that have shaped me in ways I never could have imagined. Within me lie tremendous joy and sorrow through the broken roads I’ve journeyed down. Within my soul there is a strength that only comes from surrendering it all to God and the perseverance it takes to get through the trials of life. My purpose is inside of me somewhere and I’m on a journey to find it. The road of life has taken me many places; some that I never had any intentions of going. And now, I find myself on a journey that will change my life in ways I can’t even fathom. All the heartbreak, all the pain and sorrow, all the joy and loss that is on the inside has a purpose; a purpose to impact the Kingdom in big and mighty ways. Inside of me, all these emotions and feelings, all these roads traveled will help others on the same roads I’ve overcome through their dark times. My testimony is uniquely mine, and though it was extremely hard to walk through some of the storms I did, I wouldn’t change a thing. For one day, it will all be used to bring Him Glory and that makes it all worth it.