The Discovery

The wind carried her to places she’d rather not have gone.  To places that were unfamiliar and dark.  She was living a life of unknowns.  Of what nows.  Of where to go from here’s.  She knew a beautiful mess of a life was waiting for her, but where would she find it here?

With each step forward, she slowly began to trust.  Slowly began to feel Him.   Faith steps.  A letting go and giving of control.  Her heart.  Her mind.  Her worries and anxieties.  A constant exchange of giving and taking.  Sorrow and joy.  Thanking and praising.  Of trusting despite the unknowns.  

She took faith steps forward and saw His hands in this place.  A beautiful mess of a life waiting to be lived.  Waiting to be lived in the face of uncertainty. Of what nows and where to go from here’s.  A life waiting to be found and seen through different eyes.  His eyes.  


And just as she found what she was looking for along the journey, the wind carried her somewhere new.  Another beautiful mess of a life waiting for her to discover was on the horizon.  This one a little different from the last.  She steadied her feet to feel the sand between her toes and made the decision.  The decision to walk.  To trust.  To believe that this beautiful mess of a life waiting to be discovered was better than the last.  

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