Beauty for Ashes

There are times in life when you have to face whats up ahead.  Not sure of what is waiting for you, you have to make a decision—run straight for it or turn back and go a different way.   Some of the hardest trials are waiting up ahead; and you can see them in the distance.  But how do you make the decision to embrace the trial and all it will entail.  Surely, it would be easier to flee.  It would be easier to run the opposite direction and not have to face it at all.  But eventually, it would come back round asking to be seen and heard.   Each and every morning, that’s where I am at.  Having to make the decision to walk into whats up ahead or turn around.  And each morning I don’t ever wake knowing if it will be ‘one of those days’, emotionally.  I wake knowing that I’m at the crossroads of facing what my reality is today or pushing it all away and checking out of myself and live just going through the motions.   The heaviness I feel and the aching of the void sometimes ar