Beauty for Ashes

What makes your heart happy?  I mean truly happy?  Have you ever sat down and thought about that?   For me, I live for the moments.  I live for the memories.  I live to see all of my boys smiling.  To see the flicker of happiness in their eyes and pure joy on their faces.  I live for experiences, not stuff.  What makes my heart happy is nothing money can buy.  It's much simpler than that.  What makes my heart truly happy are pulling up all of the memories we have made as a family that I have tucked away in my heart.  Remembering the excitement in trying new things.  Remembering the look on their faces-the smiles, the laughter.   What makes my heart happy is to look back at a moment I captured in a photo and remember all the details from that day.  I see the world differently when I'm behind the lens of my camera.  It's always been extremely important to me to capture these moments.  These moments will pass by pretty quickly; but the memories that are left behind

God is constantly working on us.  He will continue to peel back layer after layer until we have that breakthrough.  Just when you think that you don't have any more layers to peel, God starts to show you that you do.  He shows you that there is still work that needs to be done.  He will pull and pull until those layers are completely gone.  Until you are free from that chain, healed from that pain or recognize the path you are on isn't where He wants you.  I don't know about you, but to me, this process can be excruciatingly hard.  You know that God is refining you-that He is working on you, and that you have to walk through this in order to get to the other side.  The side where He wants you to be.  It's all for a reason and a purpose, you just can't see it yet.  Any season of refinement is not easy to go through.  But it is necessary. In the seasons of refinement or discipline, trust wholeheartedly in Him.  Surrender it all so that you may see clearly what He is

My heart at this moment is full of gratitude for our youth leaders.  These men and women work so hard at guiding and shaping young minds down the road that God has in store for them.  They have an amazing opportunity to help put these children on the path to a future God has in store for them. They have such an important job in this lost world; that is to reach these kids and show them the love of Jesus. Now a days, it seems as if most kids come from broken homes, or single parent households.  That is the norm.  My own children come from a broken home.  So I know first hand how difficult it can be.  A lot of children have been abused and feel like they have no purpose because they are living such difficult lives.  These children feel like they don't fit in at church because of their environment at home.  These children are already feeling and experiencing life-such darkness at a young age. There are kids out there that don't feel safe anywhere. Could you imagine how scared

It's incredibly hard to walk down a road when you don't know where it leads to.  You are unsure of what to expect; what it will be like.  The only thing you are certain of, is that you have no choice but to travel down this unfamiliar road. Imagine this.  You are happy.  You have an awesome job.  In your eyes, your life is perfect and you think that it can't get any better than this.  You have a beautiful home, an amazing group of friends that you can't imagine doing life without.  You have finally found the perfect church and your family is thriving.  But what if? What if you lost your home?  What if something happened with your job?  What if the life you love so much was suddenly ripped apart?  What if?  What if God wanted you to walk down a different road?  What if He was asking you to walk by faith and not by sight?  Would you try to do anything to keep life as you know it?  What would you do?  Walking by faith is difficult.  If you are like me, I have to know

Do you have any lies that you believe about yourself?  I know I do.  My lies come from my past.  From a past that sneaks up on me when I least expect it.  Just when I think I've conquered one battle, God will show me another area that needs to be set free with His help.  Lately, God has shown me that I still believe certain lies to be true.  He is showing me that I allow these lies, these scars, to define who I am today.  The lies that I have believed for so long are: I am weak.  I do not have an opinion in my marriage.  I will never survive on my own.  If it weren't for me, you wouldn't have anything.  I do not have a say in finances because I am a woman.  Because I am a woman, I am not my spouses equal.  Those are just a few that I still struggle with today.  They come out in the way I act or do things.  It's also internal; in the way I think or view myself.  I struggle because of my scars.  I struggle because of my past.  I struggle because for so long I was led to