He Loved You at Your Darkest

He loved you at your darkest -Romans 5:8

It’s hard to think about God loving you when you are in the middle of a mess.  When your life is full of mistakes and bad choices, you don’t see how the light of God will ever reach down and touch your skin. For some reason, you can’t help but stay in the pattern of making mistakes and then trying to be good.  Trying to change parts about you that you feel need changing before God will ever accept you into His loving embrace.  

But friends, I’m here to tell you that you can’t change these ways on your own.  You can’t change them in your own strength.  You can’t fix the brokenness that is on the inside without first letting God into every area of your life; even the hidden parts.  Your past, your mistakes, your sins, your today; God needs to get inside the trenches of your broken heart and change you from the inside out.  Filling the holes with His love and mercy, giving you a new life; a complete heart filled with compassion for the hurting and the strength to let go of the mistakes of your past.  

The light of the Lord is always upon you.  He won’t force himself on you, but waits patiently for you to come to Him.  For some, it takes coming to the end of yourself, giving up control over your life and handing it over to God.  And in your darkest hour when you feel completely lost and alone, you realize that you’re not; you never have been.  And in that moment, when you cry out to God, His love pours out over you and and you finally have what your heart has been searching for all along.  Forgiveness.  And your life is forever changed.    

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